I was never ordinary—let’s get that straight (I was never that either). In high school, feeling out of place as many do in that era of life, I developed a mantra to help me cope. 'I’m the Kim K of PA (Pennsylvania).’ Kim Kardashian is one of my favorite celebrities if y’all didn’t know that by now. That line became such a major part of my inner-monologue back in 2008 when I watched Kim rise above the judgment, the gossip, and the endless opinions about who she should be or what she would become. She stayed true to herself—unapologetically. I saw myself in her resilience and her ability to make waves simply by existing. But here’s the key: perception is everything when it comes to self-worth. And the most important thing? Learning about yourself. It’s fine to be inspired by someone, but never compare. Your story, your sparkle, your essence? It’s yours alone.

    For way too long without realizing it, I let the world dictate my worth. I compared where I was—or let’s be real, where I wasn’t—to everyone else’s expectations. It was like living in a constant shadow of who I should be, and for a minute, I let that define my happiness. I even started exaggerating and fabricating situations (a bit on the delusional side) trying to cover up the embarrassment of feeling stuck because who wants to admit they’re not where they thought they'd be?

    Voices of judgment and opinions circled my everyday life. Add in drama that’s always lurking (because, of course, there’s always drama), and it’s no wonder I started questioning my worth. It was easy to think I wasn’t worthy of what my heart wanted. But I wasn’t having it. This is my show. The cameras came to see me, not any of them. 

    I wasn’t about to stay lost, overwhelmed, and frankly, tired of being unheard. So, I did the work. I regrouped, took long breaks when needed, redefined my goals, reinvented myself (again and again, because why not?), and got back to what felt right for me--that too can change with time as it should because it comes with growing as a person.

    Did I fail? Duh. But I didn’t stay down. I kept pushing, kept evolving, because there’s no other option—the show must go on. And now I trust myself—even when the process gets messy or seems to be going nowhere. I have faith in my higher power and that helps me out a lot as well. This journey is still unfolding, but for the first time, I’m truly listening to myself—and that, darling, is where my power lies.
         
    Your power is in your authentic self. We’re conditioned to fit molds, to keep up with the next person. But if you want to find who you truly are, sometimes you’ve got to ruffle some feathers, get off the track, and make bold decisions that go against everything you’ve been taught.    

    What’s next is protecting your peace—especially when you’re going against everything you’ve been told. Trust me, the noise gets deafening. And take it from me: don’t make the same mistake I did. I thought popping a Xanax would fix my flaws and quiet the chaos. Spoiler alert—it didn’t.

    Since I started documenting my experiences every word I wrote, every post I shared, every photo I posed for—they were all snapshots of who I was at that time, even if some of it was staged to hide how insecure and lost I truly was. It grabbed attention. People loved who I was becoming. For a while, I did too. But somewhere in the chaos, I lost myself. The noise got too loud, and I gave in.

    I became someone I barely recognized—chasing likes, feeding off any attention I could get, and clapping back at negativity just to prove a point. Behind the scenes was a whole circus. Fights, drama, real-life struggles—everything spiraled while I buried the one thing that mattered most: my peace.

    I let people who didn’t or ever will value me make me question my worth. And worse, I pushed away those who truly saw my value because I wasn’t aligned with my true self. My purpose got buried under the pressure to prove I belonged.

    But that era is closed. I’ve learned my lesson, and it’s one I’ll never forget.
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    Sure, some of the things I shared, wrote, and posted make me cringe. But delete it? Never. Why? Because I finally get it. No shame here. I’ve grown, evolved, and that’s what matters most. This is MY journey. I own every moment, every word—even the messy ones. I see now why I took the path I did, and I’m proud of every step. 

    When I made the decision to open up and put my life on display over a decade ago, my goal was empowerment. I’d always felt judged, misunderstood, and underestimated. Sharing my journey became an opportunity to refine, reinvent, and embrace who I truly am—on my terms. I didn’t know what would happen, but I was excited, especially when people started noticing. Some responded with love, others with judgment, but both gave me a sense of validation. At the same time, I felt exposed because everything that inspired my goal was suddenly magnified.

    The irony was still figuring myself out while thinking I had it all together and that was my biggest downfall. My intent came from a place of self-care, but in the process, I was careless with myself. And yet, looking back now, even with the setbacks, the growth I’ve experienced is undeniable. Reflecting on the journey is its own reward because I realize now that I accomplished exactly what I set out to do—even if I didn’t fully understand the “how” at the time. Risks pay off when you trust yourself, even when others don’t. Being unapologetic and resilient in your goals? Non-negotiable.

    Resilience is in my DNA. I’m the queen of comebacks so don't count me out...like ever. The bounce-back is always greater than the setback. Life isn’t about staying stuck—it’s meant to be lived. Your past doesn’t define your future, so if something no longer serves you, let it go. Rewrite your script, redefine who you want to be, and claim your worth. Your value is yours to own. No one can take it from you.
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    You’re the star of your life, so step into the spotlight and own it.

    Self-worth is a journey, and YOU are the one writing the script. People will talk—let them. Drama will swirl, but it’s all part of the show you’re giving them, right? You’re the drama and the redemption, the villain and the hero, the heartbreaker and the heartbroken. That’s the beauty of it—you’re the main character, and it comes with the platform.
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    You’re allowed to make mistakes, rise, fail, and succeed. Own it. Let your energy shine brighter than ever. Live unapologetically. Keep dazzling, making bold moves, learning from your mistakes, and staying fierce. Keep your faith. Keep that shine and be kind. This is YOUR script—so write it like the icon you are. You’re worth a happily-ever-after, and it’s yours to create. Why not make it legendary? - xo

I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I loved creating it. Reconnecting with you all through my blog feels amazing, and I’ve truly missed it. Thank you for taking the time to read my words—it means the world to me.
I would love to hear your thoughts and feedback over on social media—feel free to share your own story too. Let’s inspire each other. We all have something worth saying, and I can’t wait to hear what you have to say. Your voice matters!

1. Acknowledging my words then replacing the negative ones

This is important because if you aren’t aware of your words how can you replace them with better ones that actually describe who you are. Acknowledge how you’re speaking to others and yourself. For example, “I can’t do that.” Instead say, “I’m going to try and if it works out, great, if not I’ll take what I can from it and let go moving forward to something new.” This step is huge. It can be anything so pay attention to your words and edit the sentence to a positive tone that fits where you’re at. If your mind is racing with thoughts, slow down, take a breath and refresh.

This is teaching me to be more confident in my choices and allowing myself to retrain my mind with better words that add better feelings. 

2. Embracing my imperfections and mistakes 

As humans, God—or whomever your higher power is—never intended for us to be perfect and anyone who feels they are in my opinion has something wrong with their psychology. We must learn to love what we were given, aging gracefully and working towards things we would like. Like I said before we weren’t meant to be perfect. When I look at myself and I’m having an off-day where I feel insecure about something I take a moment by silencing my mind and closing my eyes. I don’t stop until I balance out my thoughts regarding my insecurities and once I’m back to a normal state of mind all is fine. 
We’ve all made mistakes, said things we didn’t mean, did stuff we wonder why we did and when I think of things I’ve done wrong or said not in a nice way I think if I didn’t mess up I wouldn’t have learned. That lesson helped me become a better person and make better choices for myself no matter how many times it may have taken eventually I learned and for that I’m grateful. 
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This is teaching me to not be so hard on myself. 

3. Doing things in silence
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Over the last year or so I became more reserved. I’ve learned the hard way not everyone —even those you thought loved you or had your back—has the best intentions and won’t be happy when you’re happy doing your thing and you know, that’s okay. People are allowed to feel whatever way they want as you are too. So instead of giving people or anyone an opportunity to try to take my happiness by feeling entitled to be nasty I enjoy it first before I even share, if I decide, because at least then I was able to experience it for myself and gain all I needed from it. My life isn’t a sport and it’s not a competition nor am I a competitor so I do in my own speed what needs to be done. Also, I don’t believe in living life in silence because that becomes depressing and we were born to make noise but there is a healthy medium to live silently while sharing with others. 

It has improved how I speak to myself about my goals, honoring my wins and failures and allowing me to find the right opportunities I would like to take or have presented to me.

4. Asking myself questions and waiting for the answers to show themselves 

I never felt I needed validation from others, others just felt they needed to validate me so this is something I’ve always done. If I need a sign that I’m making the right choice, on the right path, or if I’m stuck or feeling down I ask whatever it may be that I need to ask. The answer isn’t always immediate, but when it comes, I know it truly feels fantastic when it does. 
This is teaching me to have better patience with myself and my emotions. 

5. Surrounding myself with better people so I could have better experiences 

This step is huge because the people you have by your side are the ones that share their lives with you as you do them. Having people who bring joy, peace and laughter along with honesty and authenticity will enlighten your burdens, bring forth your best qualities and strengths allowing you to thrive. Supporting each other no matter what. 
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This is teaching me to be more aware with who I’m spending my time with, who I choose to actually socialize with outside of social media and who I allow into my energy field as it’s important for my mental health and self-talk because the people you are around the most their words will somehow find you when you least expect it—make sure their good people. 


In my opinion this isn’t finished once you’re done taking the steps and there are so much more to be taken. I feel once you’ve gotten the groundwork down it will be easier but it’s something you have to always have in your mind and be aware of to protect yourself from those who want to bring negativity to you and your life. Here’s something I always think—and it’s made perfect sense to me and has helped when I’m faced with not-so-nice situations—those individuals who are bringing negativity into your life by treating you poorly, judging, putting you down or in some way trying to question your very existence are your paparazzi and their words are the magazine headlines…don’t buy what they’re selling to you, especially when it’s about you—consider their sources. The most important conversation to pay attention to is the one you have with yourself. It’s your thoughts that shape you and your life so make sure it’s actually you talking not the noise from the people behind the flashing cameras. *Muah*


Thank you for reading. I’m so proud of you all for being you and for trying your best every day despite the circumstances both good and not so good. Keep slaying and thriving you’ve got this!

Until next time!
-Paul 

​I’m yours, I’m true Our Perfectly Handsome Politician

There’s two of us 
And yes she’s pretty but so am I 
Tell me why 
You need to go between us 

What’s your plan?
Besides being officer in command 
She’s being set up by your family for marriage 
not me, I’m not even around 
I’m nowhere near being known to those you love 

everything I ever wanted is in the way you hold me 

But I’m a dirty little secret 
I’m the one you call for a weekend 
Or come knocking at 2am 
When you need an escape 
When you’ve had too much of your life 
And need a getaway 

I’m yours, I’m true 

Putting you first like everyone does 
Threw out my morals—my worth 
Yet you give me so much 
Broke all my rules 
But only for you 
It’s all for you 

Our perfectly handsome politician 

I keep your dirty secret 
Living inside a fantasy 
One we’ve built together 
Until you’re ready I’ll be right here 
you take care of me and my needs
I see headlines that read all about you and she,
She looks dashing in the photos 
Just as I do on the social 

I pray 

That one day it will be all about you and I
Not the press 
Not the world 
Or what they all will say
Until then I’ll play this role 
I do it so well I’ll never tell 

at the end of the day 
Even after you say I do 
I’ll be here for you 
Because that’s what it’s come to 

I’m yours, I’m true 

And if they ever found out 
I’ll be judged 
you’ll be free
The world revolves around men like you
But for me?

I’m yours, I’m true 
Our perfectly handsome politician 

We love it. We hate it. We delete the apps just to re-download…yeah-yeah, we’ve all been there before. Maybe not everyone but the dramatic people have.

But why?

Because we love to share, connect, be entertained and everything else that’s fun in the digital world but there’s a huge downside to all of that. We become trapped into this cycle if you aren’t careful. Don't fall into the peer pressures social media has created but if you enjoy it then by all means go for it.
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Myspace was hitting the net when I was in middle school which means we all jumped on it without our parents’ approval. The big thing about that was I was able to explore my sexuality even further. I started to grow my hair similar to the style of Justin Bieber before he was who he was and began to form a look that was a bit preppy; bright polo shirts and tan pants. The internet allowed me to be myself but also kept people at distance so I felt safe to be who I am while talking to people I knew and random people who would add my account. ​

I enjoyed everything about Myspace: picking a song to keep my profile upbeat—Britney Spears would be on my playlist when you clicked on my profile many times—to having my wall decorated with all my favorite people; Kim Kardashian, The Girls Next Store and Sarah Michelle Gellar were to name the few. It was actually fun because it was like your very own blog where you could create a space expressing yourself and sharing what your current vibe is. You also connected with people from all over. Especially in the small town I grew up I didn't quite fit in I felt but having the ability to see a world outside of it made things a bit better.

Funny story real quick, I wasn't allowed to have a Myspace like many others. It was new and most parents weren't comfortable with having their kids on some social networking site and my mother found out because of course I would get caught...she took my blackberry away from me, my laptop so I couldn't take it with me when I left the house, she got rid of the internet for a few weeks and girl, she wasn't happy. At least I had a desktop computer so I was able to play The Sims and Nancy Drew! Ha-ha! ​

See you guys in September for the rest of the blog season! You know you can communicate with me via social media sites to share your feedback or send your questions via email/social media. Thank you again for reading I love you all. Sending you all the love, blessings and prayers you need. Take care for now, xoxo ​

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