What's up guys?! I hope you're all doing amazing. I miss you. If you've been following me you know I've spent the last two years working on my weight and hair. You know figuring out what made me happy and feeling even more confident when I enter a room, pose for a photo or a selfie. This summer I was able to reach my summer goal weight! I'm 5 pounds shy of my major goal of 155.
I've been so busy working on many things. Coming up with ideas, continuing projects, trying to find the inspiration to write on my blog plus dealing with the ups and downs of this business and my life is a never-ending ray of unexpected events. I do have a lot of posts planned but if you follow me on social media you already know July and August haven't been the best months for me as I unexpectedly loss my Gram in August. She wasn't just a grandma to me; she was my best friend, like a mother and an all around amazing person who I took everywhere with me, spoke to on the phone every day, texted all day and even spent all my downtime with her. When the time is right I will open up but it's still hard for me to really talk about. I mean I'm grateful for all the time I had with her and that her energy is still here guiding me. I can sense her right now. It's beautiful. I'm also very thankful for my boyfriend, friends and family because we are all supporting each other through this time. SO, my fabulous readers, I am going to keep this post positive and light with a bit of sass, of course.
Now, don't get me wrong it doesn't matter what size you are beauty stems from within. I mean really, it's not a cliché. There is so, so much truth behind that saying. It doesn't matter how "beautiful" a person may be or think they are in appearance. If they're ugly on the inside then that's who they truly are. It's that simple. Some of my trolls who leave me nasty comments and messages are very ugly on the inside...just saying because I know some of them will see this...get yourself some mental help. Anyways, I shouldn't be saying this but here's a bit of goss you can sip and talk about, maybe you even do this, too:
When I'm bored I sometimes creep on people I use to know, either people I worked with in the past who pissed me off. Well, that is if they don't have me blocked on social media or others I went to school with that once bullied me or made me feel like I didn't belong and even random people who came into my time briefly. I even read some of the nasty comments I get. I take a good look at them. To myself I think, "God, why in the world did I allow them to make me feel any less than fabulous or question myself." If I think about it long enough I feel sick that I allowed these type of people to disturb my peace but on the other hand I've become stronger because of it. I wasted so many years allowing these people to take away love I could have had for myself. It fires me up even more to keep doing better for myself and appreciating the love I have not only around me but inside. Thank you Jesus that they're not even in my history book anymore. Yes, I removed them. I don't know them...
Words Of Paul Wisdom: Do not, I repeat do not give people that type of power no matter how hard it may it seem or hurts take a stand for yourself and don't back down. Speak your mind. Move on from them with grace only you can possess so peace can find its home in you.
Sass Tip From Your Sass Queen:
Always work on the love of yourself, the love for others and for life. It won't be an easy journey but it's well worth it. Learning to love others gives you the tools to handle a lot unless they piss you off then give them a piece of your mind because if you let emotions bottle up your mental state will begin to embrace negativity and that's a no-no. Your main goal is to have peace and happiness inside which many of us struggle with finding due to challenges faced during our days. Most importantly always work on the art of self-love. I will do a huge post on the art of self-love one day, promise, maybe even an advice book, who knows!
Some people may get the wrong impression that self-love is "conceited" but in fact it's far from. I mean some people are so into themselves that it makes me gag but hey if they're happy on the inside that is all that counts, right? Be sure to stay humble with any type of self-love though. It's so much cuter and you uplift others, which is another important quality to have because you can be that one person that changes the lives of these people who are suffering. We are all here to build up others as well as ourselves. Don't forget that.
My major turn and what motivated me for losing weight and giving myself a fresh look was that my depression had gotten out of control and I needed to take control of my life. I couldn't allow that fog of darkness in my diva energy any longer. It was E to the NOUGH.
Two parts of my transformation are completed because I feel really happy with myself. I started to see upcoming fashion collections because my next step since losing the weight and finding my perfect hairstyle is how I want to showcase my personal style—who I’m going to wear, what colors I’m going to showcase and how I’m going to wear it!
Style has always been a passion of mine. I LOVE fashion but not to the extent that I'm an expert or have an obsession with the latest trends or brands. I'm all about what makes ME feel good not what OTHERS think or the price or who's wearing what. I don't follow trends...I set them! LOL!
I can find something cute for 5 dollars and work it. It's not about the label, it's about who's wearing it. If you're going to shop, do it on a realistic budget. Don't shop to impress. I am able to find the perfect piece of clothing for myself with a snap of a finger. I can spot an item from a mile away. When I walk into a store I'm pretty sure I look whacky because I am all over the place. I go from rack to rack, section to section and I'm pretty sure the sale floor workers are like "What is this guy doing?" But hey, I'm in the zone do not disturb. Thank you! *Blinks*
I'm not exactly sure what vibe I'm going to be gaining as I venture into building up my wardrobe. It's not going to be an overnight thing either. I need to feel like I'm sharing myself through fashion and like everything I do it's going to take time for me to find the perfect formula because it's another form of art. I can't wait to share it with you guys, but I am sure if you follow me on the media you will begin to see selfies and photo shoot photos with some of the pieces! Ha-Ha! I feel now my body is its own unique mannequin, the sky is the limit and I am ready to get creating!
Here is a question submitted to me that I answered and feel like sharing here for you guys to read. I really love each of you who support me, follow me on my journey and I hope I keep inspiring you guys to be fabulous, to follow your dreams and strive to be the best you can be.
❓ “where do you get that diva sass from? You seem so natural with it. Is it something you’ve always had, did you develop this trait? Does it help with your constant rise in entertainment? I admire it and love following your continuing world domination.”
I've come such a long way since I begun to openly share my entire journey with everyone. I have a lot to show for my dedication to my career even though I may not be on the cover of magazines, have millions of followers or my novel isn't out (yet LOL) which would show for all my hustle and hard work that people don't see. My entire 20's has been more public from a normal sense and it's becoming more public as the years go on but I've endured some of the toughest things in my life, career and self-esteem that I've ever gone through under a microscope and judgement from the meanest people I've ever come across publicly. In return I also feel the love of so many people who support me and I love each of you. I hope so far from following me that you've witnessed any dream you have is possible if you believe in yourself. My biggest lesson from these last few years is that I learned to love myself properly. Since leaving High School I was doubted as I embarked on my journey and these years have been dramatic to say the least. Filled with ups and downs that could crush someone. You either love me or hate me but here I am bitches, standing stronger than ever because I'm full of glitz and take life by the balls! Buckle up because I was built tough. I'm getting ready for the next phase of my career and I'm going to show everyone what I'm made of. *wink*
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